Coleen Rooney shares heartbreak of two devastating miscarriages and wonders if they were daughters she ‘wasn’t meant’ to have

Coleen Rooney has told of her anguish at suffering two miscarriages and admits she was left wondering whether the babies she lost were girls.

The 37-year-old WAG reveals in her autobiography how former England star husband Wayne was in tears after her first miscarriage before she went on to have four sons.

Writing in her book, My Account, she told how she had her second miscarriage after giving birth to her first two children Kai, now 14, and Klay, 10.

She penned: ‘I’ve wondered since if I could only have boys, that I couldn’t carry girls and that the two I lost might have been female. 

‘Mum says maybe I’m just meant to be the mum of boys, and that’s fine by me.’

Heartbreaking: Coleen Rooney has told of her anguish at suffering two miscarriages and admits she was left wondering whether the babies she lost were girls

Family: Coleen went on to welcome sons Kai, 14, Klay, ten, Kit, seven, and Cass, five, with husband Wayne and revealed her mother Colette told her she’s ‘meant to be’ the mum of boys

Coleen described the heartbreak of how her first pregnancy ended in miscarriage just months after she and Wayne married in a 14th century abbey in Santa Margherita on the Italian Riviera.

She shared: ‘That was until I started bleeding one morning at about ten weeks. After an examination at the hospital, doctors told us there was a heartbeat but the baby was smaller than it should have been at ten weeks. I went home feeling relieved.’

However, later that day she was bleeding again so returned to the hospital where doctors told her that she was miscarrying. 

Coleen said she went home feeling ‘shaken up and hollow’, adding ‘Of course, we were both devastated by the news.’

The tragic loss affected Wayne, who had been longing to be a father, so much that when they got home to their Cheshire mansion, he wept.

Coleen explained: ‘It’s a strange thing to be feeling all that excitement and joy, only to have it taken away so fast – a horrible experience which knocked Wayne for six too.

‘Back at home that night, he cried. He’d been desperate to be a dad and I could see on his face how wrecked he was with the loss.

She revealed that Wayne told her: ‘It’s awful. I know you’ve been through such a terrible experience but it’s hard for me as well.’

Coleen continued: ‘I think he just had to voice his feelings, which wasn’t something he did all that often. It stayed with him for quite a while afterwards, probably right up until I got pregnant again.’

Devastated: Coleen’s 2008 miscarriage left husband Wayne ‘wrecked’ as she revealed he cried as they learned they lost their first baby at 10 weeks (pictured in June 2008)

Worry: Coleen was concerned she may not ever be a mother especially because, she says her own mother Colette (pictured) struggled to get pregnant

She confessed that struggled to know how to feel about her miscarriage but that she was concerned she may not ever be a mother – especially because, she says her own mother Colette struggled to get pregnant.

‘This had been my first pregnancy and it had gone wrong, I couldn’t help wondering what this meant – was I going to be one of those unlucky women who couldn’t carry a baby, who couldn’t have kids?’, she wrote.

‘I thought about my mum, although she never miscarried, she’s really struggled with getting pregnant – it took her years and she went through a lot of fertility treatment.’

A few months later, the Rooneys discovered that they were expecting their son Kai. She said of finding out she was pregnant again: ‘That wonderful news lifted up back up again.’

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Writing about the second time she miscarried, she shared: ‘My previous two pregnancies had gone without a hitch, but something wasn’t right when I got pregnant in 2014.

‘Again, I was 10 weeks along when I started bleeding. This time, when the doctors checked the baby, there was no heartbeat.

‘The following day, I went into the hospital because the foetus hadn’t come away naturally. Mum and Wayne went to the hospital with me, where I took a tablet and then waited.

‘Hours later, the doctor told me they were pretty sure it was all done and that I could go home. They were wrong, as it turned out.

‘The next morning, I was on the toilet, and the foetus finally came away. It was a shock, and I had no idea what to do. The doctors had said it was gone, but here it was.

‘I didn’t know what to do. Was I supposed to call someone, tell a doctor? I was unsure, but felt OK, and I don’t think there was anything the hospital could have done, so I just left it.

‘It’s devastating when something like this happens; of course it is. My feelings about it this time were slightly different, though. I knew I had two healthy boys and that I’d most likely be able to have another when the time was right. I wasn’t as nervous going forward.

She added: ‘With having children, the change from two to three was the biggest. With two kids, Wayne and I had one-a-piece to deal with at any given time, but with the arrival of our third, Kit, things were a lot trickier.

‘We had, and still have, wonderful childcare assistance from a fantastic lady, Jo. She was and is a godsend, but life generally felt more hectic with three.’

Coleen’s autobiography, My Account, is out now. 

If you’ve been affected by this story contact The Miscarriage Association on 01924 200799 Mon-Fri, 9am-4pm or email [email protected] 

Tough: Coleen suffered another devastating miscarriage in 2014 following the birth of two sons (pictured after the birth of her third son Kit in 2017)

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